From Kent To Cornwall

Life can be hard and can throw you some big curve balls every know and then! Its busy and chaotic even with out three kids in toe, if i knew being an adult would be this hard i wouldn't have grown up!  Making a bit of time for yourself is not selfish but bloody much needed!  it doesn't have to be anything over dramatic either, my little me time treat is a Friday night pamper. Cue the candles and romantic music! ( ha ) once the kids are fed, washed and happy ( not trying to kill each other ) in bed I'll jump in the shower and use my all time faves!  Imperial leather has always been a go to for me, at a none ridiculous price but still great quality, i'll always look for these when i'm shopping.  There new limited edition range grabbed me straight away ( i'm a sucker for anything with flamingos on ) and does it smell AMAZZING!!  The unicorn one was more having my 5 year old daughter in mind, so I've not really had a look in...

As long as we have petrol in the car, our adventures can take us anywhere. taking the kids out doesn't have to break the bank, lets face it we work our butts off, we pay bill and some of us just scrap by. I'll make a pack up, and pack some crisps, some fruit and a few bottles of water. Sometimes we can't always get out if theirs an unexpected bill due  the kids need something for school, so i try to make sure we have garden activities to do instead, like bubbles something so simple can bring them so much fun for hours, and once there empty good old washing up liquid does the job!  You don't have to spend money to keep them happy, little walks out to the wood especially now going on a 'bear hunt' finding leaves and concurs on the way and ringing them back and creating an autumnal picture for the grandparents of the fridge. Most of us have some sort of hidden 'rainy day' cupboard so go in there and raid it, get the paints out, do some themed...

Most of the time i just try to wing my way through life like every bloody day and being a parent there's no handbooks to guide you in the right direction, because there is no right and wrong, I just try to bring my three humans up as best as i can, to be kind, caring, respectful, peaceful humans in a crazy world just trying to get through!  Don't you feel though that sometimes it all seems like one big competition? Like who has the cleanest house, who has the biggest following, who's been to the best places, who drive the best car and so on... Don't get me wrong i'd love a larger following on Instagram but hey ho, maybe one day. I think its to easy to copy other people, just because there telling you how "perfect" there life is and all that crap doesn't mean its real! Bloody hell i mean i try to keep on top of the washing, the cleaning but lets face it i'm never going to live in a spotless house, and i can't afford the latest mobil...

THIS IS ME. I may not be a model, i'm not a superstar, i'm not skinny or beautiful, but you know something? This is me, its taken me a long time to feel happy and confident in myself and i think i'm finally there. Here i am with my mum tum, my stretch marks, bags under my eyes, wobbly bits these my be my flaws but i don't care because I'm happy, i have carried three babies, I've fed them, I've lost sleep, I've eaten cake because i like it but these flaws don't define me. I have a man that man that love's me for me that'd held me when I've cried because i didn't think i was good enough, who told me i was, that if i wanted to i could do anything i put my mind to. So you now what YOU are beautiful, we all are, in our own way, flaws and all. Embracing them, excepting them is the first step to self love and its a step we all need to take. I'm beautiful to the ones who love me, i am super women to my children, a beautiful w...

Becoming a parent, is such a wonderful thing and by god i feel so grateful to be able to have three beautiful healthy children, but along with loving them comes something else. Its almost as those people forget you, and who you are, i'm not just a mum, i'm still me! I still enjoy things that i did before i had kids ( minus crazy nights out ) but why is it when you have children you loose  friends because now you have kids they don't see you in the same light? We may have changed in some ways, but underneath the dirty clothes, washing piles, pack lunch boxes we are still there. Being a parent does come first but, we still have needs and wants in life. Before i had kids i always wanted to be a holiday rep i never fulfilled that dream, as well a becoming a chef which never happened but to my kids i'm the best cook! Sometimes i feel i'm suck in that mum zone 24/7 with my eldest being 10 in January we've not spent much time as just a couple either, which i...

Behind the smiles the laughter and the normal feeling, is that crushing, sinking worrying  feeling that is anxiety. 3 year ago whilst heading off on a family holiday, a sudden adrenaline rush hit me, with chest pains, finding it hard to catch my breath and a surge of complete worry. . . I had no idea what was happening to me, i managed to calm my self down but opening the window, taking some deep breaths and the reassurance from mark got me through, but what was this awful feeling? Since then I've still had to deal with *ANXIETY* rather a taboo subject until recently, was i embarrassed, ye i was i didn't feel like me any longer, and even though I've wanted what we have now for so long Jesus it was such a daunting time for me. . . Everyone has hard times in life, some just deal with it all better,maybe there stronger? but what I've learnt is we are all strong! ghosts haunt us all but we make each day our own. . . I feel grateful for every little thing i have...

As i scroll through my social media pages seeing what my friends have been up to and what they have planned, admittedly does make me slightly jealous. Being this far away from all my close friends does suck, I've lost my support network the ones i would normally lean on, but social media and technology keeps us in contact, and we  speak everyday, it's not the same as meeting up for coffee and cake, or going shopping, lunch trips and nights out the list goes on! I do feel cut of from everyone,only because where we live in a small village and it's kind of keep yourself to yourself, but i'm so happy the boys have made some lovely new friends that live along our little road, seeing them have fun out on there bikes and exploring makes my heart melt even when i am feeling cut off. Having friends is an important thing but for me the kids having friends was a bigger thing! once there at school i'm sure i'll make some "school mum" friends. ...